MULU adventure trip...definitely its the unforgettable journey...

piece and bits of the trip (^O^)

In my entire life (so far)...i've never done anything like this....NONE, not even anything close to this. My normal holidays must be in some comfy hotels with fluffy pillows and hot water heaters plus easy access to any shopping malls and movie theatres. My holidays was always be relaxing.

I just dunno what has gotten into my mind when i agreed to join this Miri-Mulu (so-called adventure) Trip. Most people must be thinking why we are so crazy to join this trip in the first place. TRUST ME...we asked the same question to ourselves (^O*) huhu.

That 5 days 4 nights (mulu trip only) journey really taught us (well, me obviously) to value things that we have not taken seriously before.

We have learnt to live in serenity - back to basic where we're totally cut-off from civilization...from any source of communication. NO TV + NO handphone and at some places even NO electricity. We've even lost count of the dates and the days went by even without us noticing it.

The walks that we have to take seemed ENDLESS...kilometres after kilometres to and fro...in and out of the caves and the long trail of jungle trekking almost tore us (gals) apart. Some of you might think women and shopping are synonymous. "Bukan pompuan suka window shopping ker...ala, kalo shopping sehari suntuk bleh plak, nih baru jalan sket dah komplen" (^o^).

Sorry to disappoint you dude, but we're not the type who walk miles and spend hours on shopping spree. Oh, dont get me wrong...we DO love shopping, but we always know specifically where to go and what to buy. We just dont waste time wandering from 1 store to another. So, you can just imagine what the 8km to get into Camp 5 and another 11.3km out of the camp has done to us (*O*).

BUT i love ALL the boat rides (sbb xyah nak berjalan sndiri...hihi)

 

...walaupon sempit and sakit bontot dok dlm bot berjam2...tp i love the cool breeze (^o^)

The walks in and out of the caves



The jungle trekking trail...giler jauh!!!

And yang paling susah would be climbing the Mount Api to reach the pinnacle...so, out of 8, ONLY 3 of us (definitely i'm NOT one of them)  managed to reach the top...CONGRATS guys.

Mount Api - the pinnacle


After the first sleepless night in Mulu, we started to regret our decision to be involved in this journey....but then, nak menyesal pon dah tarak guna lg babe...we're in and there's no way out!!!

Later, the trails just got from bad to worse. The journey taken was getting longer and longer. At that time, we stopped thinking. At that point, there's no time to regret anymore. There's no time to complaint about anything at all.

So, we embraced the tiredness by indulging ourselves in the scenery. By taking pictures...but in my case not actually taking but by being snapped in all photos by all those expensively hi-tech cameras...Syok wooooaaa, berposing macam nak giler although penat xyah citer lar...i think you all can imagine kan???

And the guys being guys...they were the noisiest species on earth (that we've ever met)...with their squeals of laughter and their ridiculous fights (and not to forget, their orchestra concerto that we've to put up every night) and all their silly behaviour....they DID cheer up our days... there's not a single second in the journey that we're not laughing our hearts out thanks to them...at least, all the laughter that we have had lessen the misery (^v^) hihi...thanks a mill guys.

The guys

And another thing, along the journey food is a LUXURY (^O^) All meals are SUPERB. There's nothing that could make us smile happier than to see the food being served on the table for every meal time...and there's no such thing as "lauk tak sedap"...EVERYTHING was delicious (at that time lar...) and we just couldnt get enough of the food...(actually we always wanted more...)  and at that time kami dah x pedulik org lain lg dah...nak mengata kami burok lantak pon kata lar...kami tak kesah...(^O^) hohoho

And to add more to the story, even taking a bath is a challenge to some of us (^O*) hohoho... seriously, i'm not kidding.
The water was so d*** cold, some of us would think twice to bathe in the early morning...with no water heater provided, we just have to endure the cold water directly taken from the river (as in Camp 5) and the water directly from the mountain (at the longhouse). Even waktu siang kalo pg berendam kaki kt dlm sungai pon dah ketar2...
So, you can just imagine, getting a bath in the morning is literally like going to a battlefield...and trust me some of us have lost the battle even without fighting.

On the last day of our journey, though i'm happy to be heading back to Labuan, i realized that my chest felt heavy (*O*) I dont know why...

life is soooooo LOUD

i always (for this 2010/2011 batch of students lar) love tuesday...
tuesday is serenity...
tuesday is tranquility...
tuesday is peacefulness...
tuesday is the day where i would normally have a lot of FREE time doing nothing in the office...
tuesdays would be the day where i normally had a quiet time at my place staring into the computer screen (well, actually most of the time the computer screen was staring at me...)

BUT, not today (*O*)
Tuesday on the 28th September 2010 is not serene...
Tuesday on the 28th September 2010 is not tranquil...
Tuesday on the 28th September 2010 is not peaceful...

i've been hearing students' sopranos + altos at the top of their voice singing the birthday song (*O*) my birthday...there's nothing much i can say to that...not that i'm not happy...I AM (^O^) i SERIOUSLY am...but when you have reached that number "3", birthdays are not something that you look forward into anymore...
anyway, i really appreciate my students' effort in singing their heart out despite hearing some of the 'cynical' teasing remarks from my colleagues. 

THANK YOU ALL (^o^)

me and my tongue...

i didnt notice that i've totally changed in manners and attitude as i aged...
my tongue is getting faster at judging + commenting + critisizing + gossipping others...
i dont really bother about what people think...and i obviously dont bother of what they feel...
until one of my colleague pointed out to me straight to my face...
OMG!!!
i've become a very2 mean person nowadays....heartless with a cold-blooded tongue - who says things without thinking.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lmTf_tsNMnY

i dont want to regret later as i'm afraid that the all the hurt that i've caused will be permanent...and i know a permanent damage cannot be mended...

words can kill...
words can put us down...
words can destroy everything...
words can determine who you are.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XvTe7ZHa7cs

Ya Allah...help me to change (*O*) i dont want to be remembered as "perempuan ber mulut celupar". 
From now on, i will try (my best) to watch  what i said not to hurt others feeling...please god help me in this.

my latest KK trip...(so far)

Initial plan to KK

1. movie marathon
2. shopping kasut sepasang dua + baju sehelai dua + handbag (kalo ada yg berkenan di mata)
3. guardian/ watson
4. salon
5. sushi
6. comics

Day 1
We arrived in KKIA at around 2.00++pm...hailed a taxi that brought us straight to Grand Borneo Hotel in 1-Borneo. The hotel was jam packed with foreign tourists spending their summer holidays...because of that we didnt manage to get the standard room as it was fully booked by them (*o*) so, that left us with the superior room... a bit more expensive but its much2 (seriously) better than Courtyard hotel that i used to stay for MUET all this while.
On the first day, we didnt do much as both of us are tired, we just went to giant + guardian + carik mkn and went back to the room to sleep b4 headed out for our movies marathon = Twilight - New moon (the reason why i wanna go to KK) + The sorcerer's apprentice.
so, basically that wrapped up our first day there.

p/s: x sempat p shopping...xpe2, sok masih ada (^O*)

Day 2
Went to a salon and spent a whole day there (literally ONE whole day)... we were the first and (might be as we were there from 11++am till 6pm...giler lama kn???) the last customer for a very sweet lady...(forgot to ask for her name)... my back was stiff of sitting too long and waiting for the process to end was a TORTURE...
once done, i was literally famished i could eat a horse...nope (*O*) i could eat an elephant but later resort to sushi king....its much2 nicer + tastes much2 tastier (^v^)
before we ended the night, we went for another movie treat - Inception = a brilliant work of christopher nolan.

p/s: another day went by and still x sempat p shopping (*O*)

Day 3
Lepas breakfast dah nak kene siap2 p airport...arrrggghhhh (@_@) still xdpt shopping...uhuks, sgt2 kuciwa...penat jer terbang jauh2 merentasi lautan...and the fact that i had a very2 tiring KK trip...without even getting a chance to shop, that was seriously depressing.
last2 nya kitorg shopping famous amos + perfume jer kt airport...haish...sedey btol

The Outcome

1. Movie marathon - dpt tgk 3 movies jer...ok lar kn dr xder langsung
2. shopping - langsung x sempat...haish!!!
3. sempat p guardian + watson kejap jer (*O*) buat syarat jer dpt masuk.
4. salon - sepanjang ari....
5. sushi - OK lar tp bcos of terlampau penat, xdpt nak mkn byk...
6. comic - jumpa 1 jer (*O*) 

so, puas ati with the trip?
NOPE...not really but i have to bersyukur dengan apa yang ada...like what my friend said: "at least ko ada gak cuti...kami ni..." (^O^) so, alhamdulillah.

teacher, lecturer or educator???

teacher, lecturer or educator???

what's the difference?

what does it matter...

for those ignorance.

teacher, lecturer or educator???

what does it mean?

teach, lecture and educate scholar...

to get their life ascertain.

teacher, lecturer or educator???

what does it resemble?

we do all the role-player...

just to satisfy all those 'grimmish' disabled???

teacher, lecturer or educator???

when will this end?

just hope..just pray for your heart desire...

never unless we get a concussion.

teacher, lecturer or educator...

just enjoy the torture... 

we'll get our 'toast'...

once they stop to boast.

*sigh*

today is just not my day...(~,~)

my chest feels heavy... and I'm exhausted, mentally + emotionally tired.

its all because of the students (one student in particular) attitude.....
the one who keeps on blaming others for their own flaws.....
the one who knows his weaknesses but did nothing to change as if the weaknesses can eventually disappear on its own...
i just couldn't take it anymore so i asked him to come and see me personally...
he came but with a 'bodyguard'.....
i chased the 'bodyguard' away as i said i need to talk to him in private...so the 'bodyguard' went off...

AND
i started the conversation with a light topic....
firstly, i started talking + asking him about his family + studies + friends until i eventually came to the main topic of the day = his problems in english class....MY english class....
at first he responded, he admitted he's weak in the language...
so i asked, what would u do about it since u know you are weak???
he said, 'nothing!!..mcm tu saja lah...
i asked what do you mean by that???
he said, 'dah mmg lemah...mcm tu saja lah...dah lemah, nak buat apa lg???
i asked him to come and see me every afternoon after class for extra + private tuition, but he refused by saying that NOTHING can be done... he's weak...(AGAIN with that answer)
with that, he seriously has pushed the right button...
(*O*)
so, i started to talk about his family, about his responsibility of being the eldest son of a "petani" family...about him being the role model for his siblings....
he stopped looking at me...
and started to cry.....sobbing like h*** (but, come to think of it now (*O*) it looks like crocodile tears to me...)
so, i gave him some quiet time.
after a while, i started asking him again, but he refused to say anything...

i left him at my place while i was attending my other students who came for consultation....

he was at my place for more than one hour...but, that doesnt change anything....
his attitude before leaving my place was still disappointing...
he was STILL refusing my help....

he refused my suggestion on the extra class....he even refused my other suggestions to improve his english.... he practically refused anything...EVERYTHING!!!
what more can i say???what more can i do???

WHAT ELSE CAN A TEACHER DO???

some people did say: 

You can be a doctor and save lives...

You can a a lawyer and defend lives...

You can be a soldier and protect lives...

or

You can just simply be yourself...

A teacher who touches lives. 

p/s: i just dont see any point in "touching people's lives" if they still refuse to do anything with their OWN lives. 

*sigh*

 

mystery...

Life's a mystery...some can see in the dark, 

some get lost in the bright light, 

some are proud to announce what they dont have, 

some deny what they have, 

some hide the obvious, 

and others display the non-existent...

thats how colourful life is...

so, what is your mystery of life???

 

i can....can you???

i got this nice email long-long time ago....
actually i've already forgotten that i have this email in my inbox until i'm desperate in looking for some extra materials for a course...today's course where i'm supposed to inform the English Unit about the latest changes in MUET writing.
so, while cracking my head thinking about what to present, i went to browse through my old+ancient emails when i suddenly came across this nice article....so, i decided to share this with my colleague... (^o^)

fi yuo cna raed tihs, yuo hvae a sgtrane mnid too.

cna yuo raed tihs?

olny 55 plepoe cna...

i cdnuolt blveiee taht i cluod aulaclty uesdnatnrd waht i was rdanieg. The phaonmneal pweor of the hmuan mnid, aoccdrnig to a rscheearch at Cmabridge Uinervtisy, it dseoo't mtaetr in waht oerdr the ltteres in a wrod are, the olny iproamtnt tihng is taht the frsit and lsat ltteer be in the rghit pclae.

The rset can be a taotl mses and you can sitll raed it whotuit a pboerlm. Tihs is bcuseae the huamn mnid deos not raed ervey lteter by istlef, but the wrod as a wlohe. 

Azanmig huh?

Yaeh and i awlyas tghuhot slpeling was ipmorantt!


p/s: actually, there is more...but  i skip the malay version part...

life goes on...no matter what (^o^)

another two of english unit members are leaving KML for a better life + better future + better place + better experience...
hope they'll never forget those they leave behind...(me included)...

i just got to know these nice people, and already its time to say goodbye...
life is too short to be ignored...
things happen so fast nowadays that sometimes we dont even get the chance to blink our eyes to see the changes...

and it is just scary to even think about it...

mathematics challenge

i got something nice this afternoon that i want to share with all of you...(courtesy of my ex-students)

If you are an Engineer, you should be able to solve it within 3 minutes or less (30 seconds);
If you are an Architects, perhaps you will need 3 hours;
If you are a Doctor, perhaps you will need 6 hours;
If you are an Accountant, maybe 3 months;
If you are a Lawyer, maybe you can never find the answer....

nasib baik lar i'm not a lawyer (^o*) dats why i ONLY need less than 10minutes to solve this...

so, kengkawan....
SILA LA TRY yer KALO BERANI (^o^)...hohoho

|---+----+----+------+-----|

| 2 | 3 | 4 | 15 | 12 |

|---+----+----+------+------|

| 3 | 4 | 5 | 28 | 20 |

|---+----+----+------+------|
| 4 | 5 | 6 | 45 | 30 |
|---+----+----+------+------|
| 5 | 6 | 7 | 66 | 42 |
|---+----+----+------+------|
| 6 | 7 | 8 | ? | 56 |
|---+----+----+------+------|

Find out the number in "?"




Have fun!! (^v^)



p/s: TQVM eunice for forwading this email to me (^O^)

old life???

"Some people can get Old without getting Old"...thats the fact of life... and that's the thing that i'm afraid most...

i refuse(i know its bad to say this) to grow old...
i refuse to have flaby tummy...
i refuse to have double chin...
i refuse to have brittle bones...
i refuse to have absent mind....
BUT i know i can never change the fact that as a normal human being, aging process is a normal thing...therefore, i will cherish my youth till i can no longer lift my fingers....

ONE MORE THING...

i'm getting fussier + more stubborn  as the years go by....
i wonder why???is it because of the age factor???

cheeewah....tuh trick question jer tuh...(^O^) hohoho

i'm actually afraid...nope, not afraid...i am TERRIFIED of being old...

i dont wanna grow old being a grumpy kinda lady...
in fact, i hate old grumpy lady....so why am i behaving in such way (*O*) walaupon x bape obvious, tp i'm nurturing myself into that kinda attitude
i just hate myself for it...(*O*)

one article i have recently read said: 

"...we can see that anger management is necessary is our stressful lives. If we do not learn to manage our anger, we will harm ourselves physically. It has been reported that people who are constantly angry are twice as likely to have a heart attack than those who have learnt to manage their anger. So, the next time you get angry and upset, try out one of the ways that have been suggested..."

so, i'm going to train myself to be a BETTER person...much much better than i AM now...

Insyaallah....wish me luck (^O^)

life is funny...

i love tuesdays....only in the year 2010....
people are saying funny things to me today...

the first occurance:
i was busy typing handouts on sample essays to be given to my new batch of students as they gave me a total "crap" when i asked them to write an essay yesterday when a friend came to me....hush...hush and told me that she dreamt of me last night... i was practically screaming before i asked for details...

friend: i have something urgent to tell u wor...kalo x hati tak tenang nnt...
me:what???ape yg penting sgt sampai ati x tenang nih???
friend: i dreamt of u last night....

i screamed....

me:OMG!!! me????why me???
friend:no...its not u alone...there are other people also....
me:so, citer sampai abes mimpi tuh......
friend: i dreamt u and *[name has to be put a secret] are a "夫妇"....


so, i said....

me: nasib baik.....thank god u have dreamt of that...meaning that its not going to be true lar because mimpi kn selalunya makna dia terbalik..... (hopefully)


the second occurance: 
i was bored, so i started calling everybody in my list....
one of them is liza, my bestie
me: are u busy??? (she's teaching an afternoon session)...
liza: going to be busy in a few minutes (she has class)...why???
me: saja jer....nothing to do....nak mengumpat
liza: bagus2...cepat, kita nak mengumpat sapa nih???
me: tp, i have no one in particular lar....
liza: kalo camtu, nak tanye nih...ko ade pelaris tak???(as she just opens a new restaurant in tawau)
me: weih makcik, kalo aku ada pelaris dah lama arr aku nih kene sambar ngan org...tuh soklan menghina ke hape tuh???
liza: ...ok2....(before she laughed out loud....)...ju, nnt sok2 kalo ko dah laris tepon aku balik yer....nak kene p klas dah nih...babai..
me: antoo btol arr...haish!!!


so, the gist of the story today....
AWAT SUMA ORANG NAK AKU LARIS CEPAT2 NIH??? what's wrong with being single???

haish....fenin!!!!!!

students are getting from bad to worst each year...
i thought i was having a miserable life last year in...
handling students' attitude...
dealing with students' tantrum...
"healing" their language problems...
manipulating their strengths...
"treating" their weaknesses....
i thought LAST year was hell...
this year is even worse....
ape yg lagik teruk dr hell eh???

GOD...please give me the strength to go through this year...
i really need it (*O*)

one & alone...

i've never known that silence can drive me nuts....
i thought i like being alone....
getting the whole house to myself should be something that i should be waiting for...
i can do lots of the things that cannot be done when my housemate is around...
but apparently, i thought wrong (*O*)

i hate the silence of the house...

i hate talking to myself...

i hate seeing no one else in the house...

i hate having no one to accompany me in the house...

i hate the echoes...

i hate being ALONE...

and i dont want to end-up like this lil' birdie...

alone and lonely (*O*)

i don't really need someone to talk to...
i just need someone to be IN THE HOUSE....with me....
we don't have to talk to each other...
we can mind our own business...
we can do our own things....
i just need another soul in the same house WITH me....

p/s: hurmm...how pathetic that sounds eh?????

buhsan (*O*)

buhsan nak mati dok umah sorg2 nih...
xtau nak watpe kt umah kalo sorg2.....
nak berborak, xde member...
nak tgk tv pon buhsan, xde kwn nak lawan meng'komen'....

but then,
early mornin' my cousin main2 ngan FB - letak lagu2 syahdu zaman2 lama dulu2....
so, i pon ikot sekali arr main2 dengor lagu2 lama...
byk gak arrr dengor lagu2 jiwang pagi td....
tetibe terjumpe lagu nih....

suwey btol lyric lagu nih...chiestttttt!!!!
"BILA DAH JEMU KITA DITINGGALKAN"
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3KrN2duSyRM&feature=related

nih lg satu...(*O*) haish!!!
"KURELAKAN DIKAU PERGI"
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gX8BKn9_Xr8&feature=related

ade lg nih...
"RINDU PADA YANG TAK SUDI"
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=d2unXLCzdc0&feature=related
lagu nih cam sangat sesuwei (*O*)

tapi, xpenah plak tdengor lagu nih mase zaman dulu2...

afsal eh?????

(*O*) huhu...

P/S: Lagu2 melayu mostly MEMANG sangat2 kasihan kn???? sumanya lagu2 yg menyedihkan....haish!!!

Mes amies....

Venue: Penang
Date: 29 may 2010 - 30 may 2010
Time: Sepanjang hari selama 2 hari
--------------------------------------------------

MERAMPOK PENANG = the title says it all
i went to Penang and (literally) stole my friends away from their routines.....
i stole their weekends...i stole their time... v(^o^)v

It was a very tiring yet extremely enjoyful journey...

it was Tiring because:

Nak sampai ke penang tuh, there are LOTS of obstacles...
sampai dah rase cam nak membunuh org pon ada tp bwk2 bsabor jer lah....
kalo x kerana nak p jumpe kengkawan mmg aku dah kensel jer plan nak ke sana tuh...
but considering the fact that i've not seen them for quite a looooooooonnnnnnnnnggggggggggg time...
i forced myself to be patient with all the things that had happened...

1: Flight dr labuan got delayed because they said something went wrong with the flight from KK...
so, we(literally) rot in the airport for 2 hours...

2:Di sbbkn flight ptama dah delay...so secara otomatik nyer kami mmg dah kene tinggal ngan connecting flight ker penang...(*O*)
nak marah pon dah x guna...flight dah jalan dulu without us in it....redha jer lah...

3: Nasib baik org MAS issued new tickets...dpt lar flight kol 11++pm....
smpi penang dah kol 12++pm...
by the time we arrived at Penang, we are mentally and physically tired...
pikir nak landing atas katil and terus tido jer....

4:BUT,something went wrong plak dah ngan hotel booking....
org hotel ckp nama aku xde dlm senarai plak...lg sekali hangen satu badan....
hotel plak dah fully-booked katanye...
xde bilik kosong (*O*) nak tanak tpaksa amik jer pape bilik yg ade....
dah kol 1pagi...otak dah xbleh nak bpikir waras lg dah...
yg ada dalam kepala cuma = katil+tido+katil+tido+katil+tido....

5: Ingtkan lepas bgumbira + bercanda + berpoya2 for 2 days,
things are okay but then ade lg bende jadik on the way back....
adoyaiiiii (*O*)
flight lg sekali delay...tp kali nih kami suma dah boarding masuk kapal.....
OMG, panasnya rase cam kene kukus dok dlm tuh x bgerak2 approximately around 1++hour...
seriously suffocating dok dlm tuh....
elok larr lg rasenyer mase on the way p aritu, at least kami blom masuk lg, bleh arr lg berlegar2 kat departure hall tuh...jalan2 buang mase......and sejuk arr sket aircond nyer....

though its tiring + exhausting....i DID enjoy my penang trip...

walaupon kepala lutut mcm nak tertanggal kene dera ngan zaki....(zaki kejam, bwk p jln tgh2 panas time matahari tegak atas kepala)...
walaupon telinga rase cam nak pecah kene dengor zaki + cuda yg 'hingaq' membebel....
walaupon telah berlakunya pertumpahan darah...
walaupon tido x cukup...(kene bgn extra awal and tido extra lambat)
walaupon macam2 bende yg tak di sangka jadik...

tp aku suka....(^O^) aku sangat2 puas ati....

lg aku suka because
1. Thank god bjaya gak tgk 2movies = Prince of Persia + Shrek...
2. P little india, carik indian sweets...(tp, bli sket jer...haish!!!)
3. Dpt shopping bju baru 2-helai...tgh sale tuh kt penang...(ingt nak p sambung shopping the next day tp x sempat p)

But time flies when we're having good time kn????
sangat2 sekejap rasenye, i wish we had spent more time together....lg syok kn....


Anyway, TQ people for being a good company...TQ for driving us around...TQ for being our tourist guide x bertauliah (byk merepek+merapu+meraban jer yg bukan2)....TQ for putting-up with our nonsense demands and TQ for being THERE!!!


and I AM also HAPPY because...

ku paksa zaki meng'import kekura dr sidney....tp dpt sekor jer, lg sekor dah ilang katanye...xtau letak kt mana...

zaki's

cheah gave me a very nice(because its 'brown'=my peberet kaler) shawl...and both of them(cuda_cheah) get us a fridge magnet gambo penang bridge sebagai ganti xdpt naik....ok arr dr xde langsung kn???

cheah's + cuda's

tokey2 kaya yg baru lepas belanja makan BESOR....

muka tokey2 kaya....(^o^)

SO, Millions of thanks to zaki + cuda + cheah = TQ soooooooooo much for EVERYTHING..... luv u all (^@^) muachs2.....


P/S: Pasni kalo kami datang lg, kita p merampok tmpt laen plak eh....
kita p piknik kt air terjun (^O^) hohoho

my KEKURA (*O*)

my so-called 'the mother of kura-kura' dah terbunuh diri sendirik...
ter'eksiden + ter'jatuh dr atas meja...
so dah ter'cedera parah...
kepala ngan 1-kaki dah ter'cabut...dah try pasang blik pon dah xmau lg dah...
so, how???

(*O*)

(!_!)

so after almost 10 years together.......now is the time to be separated....




p/s: thats why lar dlm 2-3 ari nih ade sket mengong...(*O*) emotionally disturb maa...

Ketam Telur Masin

mase blik cuti akhir sem baru2 nih...
i went out "mengetam" with my family...
under my kmph's colleague's suggestion = intan (thank you VERY2 much for the recommendation...)

i lurrrvvveee ketam....
i've been enjoying ketam feast on regular basis almost every months....

but ketam telur masin is not for me larr....
i don't really like the taste...
maybe because its my first time...
i'm still not used to the taste yet...
i'll try again next time i got the chance...
maybe i'll change my mind next time aorund i try that (^O^)


p/s: nak kene carik tmpt lain plak arr lenkali...

haish (^o^) hohoho

my new hobby = mooching around
this is the thing i do best now...doing nothing (^o^)
dok umah golek-golek...
xbuat pape keje memang sungguh membahagiakan (^O^) hohoho

and i've been very bad to my fren...
from one day to another, i keep on giving promises to my friend -
"ok2...arini kita makan kt umah, kita masak"
tp everyday gak aku wat muka sedey ajak dia pegi makan kt luar jugak...
and it works everytime (^O^) hohoho...

Ntah arrr....xtau arr ngape, tahap kemalasan semakin melampau2 skang nih....
malas btol nak masuk dapor and memasak -
except for weekend arr...weekend memang i'll force myself to cook...
weekend jelah masa nak btol2 dok umah and doing nothing other than eating and sleeping + eating and sleeping + eating and sleeping

so, approximately (kalo di kira-kirakan) dah nak masuk  byk mggu gak aku memberi janji2 palsu konon nak memasak...haish (*O*)

tapi, badan tak larat arr...
balik opis pon dah lambat pastu nak kene memasak plak...
kengkadang ade gak rase2 nak menggaji daily maid yg akan tggu aku sampai umah dengan makanan yg dah sedia terhidang kt atas meja...
HAISSSSHHHHHHHH (*O*) alangkah bgusnya...

kalo nak di ikotkan...
arini aku sepatutnya makan kt umah..
because i'm not feeling well so aku xbleh (konon) kene angin malam, x bgus ntok org yg tak sehat...
tapi, macam biase arr aku wat muka seposen aku tuh + lagi dgn alasan aku pose tuh + mengidam (konon) nak makan chicken chop plak...
so, kami end-up makan kt luar lg arini...

tapi, aku dah janji (lg sekali) kt my fren yg esok akan masak di rumah...
akan ku cuba ntok memasak...
akan ku pastikan kami makan kt umah jer esok...

TAPI...
aku tak dpt pastikan samada aku akan berjaya (^o^) hohoho

Deepsea Restaurant

just wanna share (^O^) there's this new restaurant yg baru bukak kt terminal ferry yg lama...

sotong panggang yg xde dlm menu (tp kami gatal gak nak mintak) spicy chilli crab (yg mmg KAW2 nyer rase cili api) + udang sambal (yg sama gak KAW2 nyer pedas)

this is our second time to this place...
this time around kami tried mkn nasik ngan lauk2 plak...and maybe because restaurant nih baru bukak so diorg layan kami nyer order though our order xdak pon dlm diorg nyer menu...(^o^) hohoho, jahat btol kn order makanan yg xdak dlm menu...nasib baik the cook rajin nak masak...TQ incik (^O^) and both of us puas ati ngan food dia...(^O^) walaupon sambil makan sambil menangis (sbb pedas)...TAPI kami puas ati....sgt2 puas ati (^v^)

the first time we were here both of us tried their western food....
i tried "steak combo" = 1piece of steak + 1piece of lamb + 1 prawn + coleslaw + 1bun + fries + baked beans + 1slice of cucumber + tomato (gambo lupe nak amik...huhu) the taste (*O*) hurmmm.....OK lar though the meat ade sket chewy but i like the black pepper sauce so.....can do lar...

our third time(last friday)...we tried noodles plak - meehun tomyam + kueyteow wantan hoo (gambo xdak amik jgak...hihi)...mcm x bape nak ok ngan anak tekak aku...maybe bcos kami dah melantak McD siang tuh so perut mcm still penuh, dats why xbleh abes...so, next time around, we'll try yg lain plak (^o^) hihi...

trying new eating places has become a routine for me and my housemate...syok kalo dpt tmpt yg ok...makanan sedap ati gumbira tapi kalo kene tempat yg teruk + makanan cam hampas tuh ade arr gak rase nak mnyumpah...(^o*)

we normally go and try new places under friends/ colleagues' recommendation...
this place was recommended by k.aina just before she left for KMS...TQ very2 much k.aina for recommending this great place...

hopefully the quality of the food stays the same because this is going to be our next 'regular' place menggantikan Anjung Ketam (^o^)...
so....
babai Anjung Ketam(ntok sementara waktu arr)...huhu

pencarian...yg blom berhasil (*O*)

i've been searching for this story for a very2 lonnnngggggggggg time...
my favourite cartoon when i was small...

"DADDY LONG LEG = AYAH KAKI PANJANG"

i found the book the other day...but i DONT WANT a book...i dont want to read
i want the cartoon series in a VCD or DVD form......i want to watch!!!
really miss that cartoon series (*O*) seriously...

(!_!)

things just dont go my way...
March hates me...seriously

bad...bad day 

bad thing just crashed down one after another....
and its driving me nuts even to think about it...
and i cannot NOT thinking....
i have lots of things to do this week....i HAVE to think...
with the PB marks yg nak kene key-in...dengan all workshop materials yg t'hangus skali ngan "hard drive"....

haish....
if only i have some sort of magical power that can make things better (*O*)


i just dont know what to do + what to think.... (^-^)
tried not to think too much BUT the more i tried to forget the more i'm thinking about it...

i'm VERY2 EXTREMELY miserable...
oh GOD, dont do this to me...Forgive me, pleaseeeeeeeeeeeeee...

 hope to see the light at the end of the tunnel...

apart from all the bad things...i still need to put on my positive attitude...

smile Junainah...keep on smiling...

life will be better soon...insyaallah...

life as a single lady...

single lady should not be sick...is it???

"single lady should not be sick"...i picked up that line dlm satu citer yg me and my friend tgk...and i DID ask my friend btol ker ape yg aku dengor...or aku tsilap dengor ape yg pelakon2 tuh ckp bcos sumtimes although aku mcm tgk TV tp pikiran tuh sbenornye dah wander off sangatttttttt jauh...my friend just angguk kepala jer(dia mls nak layan bcos she knew once dia setat layan i'l start mbebel non-stop nyer arr....stupid dialog (*O*)

"single lady should not be sick"...logik ker camtuh?
kenapa plak single lady xbleh sakit???
kami nih bukan manusia ker???
urat dawai???
tulang besi???
hati batu???
keras kepala???( keras kepala tuh me lar....aku mmg keras kepala+degil tahap gaban nyer...huhu)
kepala angin???

"single lady should not be sick"...yeah rite...

kenapa people slalu pandang negative kt single lady eh???
as if being single is a disease yg contagious...dats y ramai org yg takot end up as a "single lady"...
ntah arr...mls nak pikir lebey2 pasal nih...wat semak kepala jer (^O^)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rfAQf6eLGB4

life isn't easy...

LIFE ISN'T ALWAYS EASY...

 life can be unfair at time,

when you must maintain faith and never let go..

it is especially during the difficult times,

that you must live your life to its fullest potential. 

LIFE ISN'T ALWAYS EASY..

but if you keep going and persevere to the very best of your ability,

you will gain strength to manage the new challenges ahead..

ALWAYS BELIEVE

that they are bright and wonderful days ahead for you

and YOU will find them...(anonymous)

life is not always easy...
but most people seem to forget that fact...

today, u might be on the top of the world, u have fun...lavishly pouring all da good things on u...
giving urself da best of everything...never look back...never care about people around u...
totally forgetting about others...as if u OWN da world....

but, remember...GOD IS GREAT!!!

as tomorrow u might shatter to pieces...everything will be gone in a split second...u'll b left wif nothing...and dats when u'll come crawling+begging for others to help...
WHY NOW??? kenapa bile time susah jer ingt org lain???time senang+kaya-raya...mkn sndirik2...time susah mula arr wat muka seposen mintak org tolong...nak wat ape?????

One thing for sure...LIFE IS NOT EASY...never is...never will...

so, why are people(some people) PURPOSELY making their life MORE miserable...MORE complicated...
is it for da challenge??? is it for da fun of it??? is it for da fact dat u expected to get MORE in life and yet u cant reach ur target??? ur expectation is too high???

go 2 hell wif da target + expectation...sometimes we hv to lower our EGO and start thinking of others...even only for a while...

how i despise those kinda people...who wait 4 miracle to fall on their laps...
if i'm given a license to kill, they'll be da first one to be shot to death...NO COMPROMISE!!!
if only i can....hurmmmmmmmm...

life is hot...

i'm  bit tired lately, tired of doing nothing...(*O*)
and da fact that da office is giving a free sauna (lately) makes it even worse...
i got migrain almost everyday..
i easily snapped over nothing...
everything gets into my nerve...
eventhough how hard i tried to let loose, with this kinda "weather" i just x know how long i could be sane (*O*)

well, the only thing i can do now is to think of something cold...hopefully it works...

life yg pemalas....

breakfast with a lamb chop and iced honey-lemon...haishhhh!!! xpenah di buat org mkn lamb pepagi buta...
a very good way to kill urself... (^o^) huhu...

abes tuh nak wat cemane lg...dats the only thing in the fridge...
lgpon mls nak msk nasik...nnt kalo msk nasik kene msk lauk2...leceh arr...
lamb just campak jer dlm oven+potato then just wait for the "ding" sound...
settle...
xyah nak tggu2...nak kacau2...nak tgk2...simple and nice...

but, the problem  nyer, by noon aje dah setat lapo blik....(!_!)
ape nak mentekedarah lg nih...nak kene msk nasik gak ker???
xmooooo...

at last, i resort to 'cheese+tuna sandwich'...sama gak mcm lamb...msk oven, tinggal jer (^O^)
huahuahuaha....LIFE IS GOOD!!!

new beginning...is it???

its a new day in a new year...
a day to start anew...
a day to start fresh...
a day to forget the past...
and continue living the future...

but i wonder how am i going to start a new beginning if my past keeps on haunting me...
or i didnt allow my past to pass over me...(*O*)
did i???
i x know...
x know what i want in my life...
i x know what i need...
i just DONT FREAKING KNOW...

OH GOD,
please help me...
guide me....
give me sign...
anything...
just help me in choosing what's best in my life...
i really need it...
seriously...

cny 2010

i missed all da chinese new year celebration in kmph (^O^)

its a yearly routine for me to attend da celebration as a support to all my chinese friends who have pulled out all their energies to make that celebration a success...i only stopped going for the celebration as i was doing my masters (2007-2008) as it coincided with my classes...

hoping to get that merry celebration in kml...but i know the feeling would never be the same...as i'm here (only) as a spectator not the person who gets involve from the very beginning...mostly as a "pengkritik tegar" lar...(^o^) hohoho

me and cheah during one of the CNY celebrations...

cinta HIPPO dan KURA-KURA...

i spent my whole day watching tv...
starting from a GLEE marathon to heroes to grey's anatomy to desperate housewives to Oprah....
oprah is having a valentine's day marathon...so, everything is about love...

what attract my attention was when oprah invited a guy "steve harvey" - the writer of "Think Like a Lady, Act Like a Man"...he said "god does not create a man and never let u not see him...

learnt a lot from him tonite...what men think...what to expect from them...da facts that we hv to know about men...1 thing that i agree is about "DO NOT LOWER YOUR STANDARD"...we, women should hv our own standard and never lower our standard to suit the men's expectation...the right man will come (eventually)...he's somewhere out there, waiting to be discovered...

 its just that some of us hv to wait a little longer...never gv up hope...like what steve said :"god does not create a man and never let u not see him"...we just hv to be patient (^o^)

therefore, i wanna share two links:

a love story that amazed me most (^o^)...
of hippo and tortoise...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=i2Kc2y-geiU

just another additional link to share...(^v^)
cinta adam dan hawa by misha omar...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tw9a5w-t_7Y

p/s: "If we deny love that is given to us, if we refuse to give love because we fear pain or loss, then our lives will be empty, our loss greater." Anonymous

love life...

still in a "love" mode..

staying alone on valentines' day made me think of lots of things...especially about love...

love (to me) is UNIVERSAL...

love to GOD...

our love towards our parents...

love our family+brothers+sister

love among friends...

love the students...

love...love...love...

so, why restrict urself to love only certain people when u can actually love all of them at once...
but, the most important thing of all is...love YOURSELF first then u can start loving others...

life is green???

just watch HULK few days ago...despise that story...why do people turn green everytime they got angry, for heaven sake...wut's da phrase 4 dat???madly green???

well, ok...i'm not goin' to talk about hulk green...hey,i'm goin to talk bout "Go Green" ere...

one of my dear friend keep on pestering me on using tupperware container to 'tapau' food and drinks from the cafe...at first it annoys me as i'm not a tupperware kinda person...and da fact that i hv to wash my container everyday+everytime i use it... really bug me..
but, she said some of us has to do something...if everybody keeps on using a polisterine tapau then who's going to save the world...hurmmmm, that does make sense (^v^)

and  it just struck me one day as i was totally drained+dehydrated after my classes bcos of the scorching hot weather in labuan that i had to do something to make a difference... cheeewahhh...tp just a small difference lar (walaupon tak byk...but its da first step rite???)

although not much but at least i'm doing something to save MY world...

life deprivation...

i'm totally deprived...not from love but from all those precious latest comics...
living in labuan deters me from getting the latest comic edition....
all da comics yg BARU mngeluarkan diri di labuan suma pon i dah ada...
xde yg btol2 baru pon...
and its driving me nuts...man (*O*)...
i need my daily dose of comics to spice up my life...seriously!!!

now, i'm channeling my thirst + hunger for comics to books...
story books...
tp buku xsemua yg i suka baca....

i read books bcos of da author (dulu2 lar)...
BUT most of the author dat i like, dah bace suma dah...
(and i'm da type who xnot read da same book twice)...



so now nak kene b'alih arah lar plak...
carik new author and new genre....
but then, its difficult to find good genre to read (since i'm a bit fussy bout dat)...

so, wut to do???

dont stop believing...

dont stop believing...


i found this cool clip...enjoy (^v^)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xIoSTbPt_PI&feature=related


when people start talking bout marriage life, i will try to shun away(kalo bole arr...tp selalu nyer akan t'tangkap gak...haishhhhhh)...susah btol arrr...xtau arr kenapa org luar yg lg sibuk2 bz bodi ngan ur life instead of ur parents/family...kn????pelik kn (*O*)....hurmmm...ntah larr...diorg takot kita p mngorat husband diorg kot...dats y beria2 sgt nak kita kawen cepat2...at least once we are married....they feel relieved arr sket, kurang lg sorg competitor (^o^) ....

when talking bout marriage...i will normally take my ex-K.U as my idol...she got married at da age of 40++ and she's blissfully happy now...alhamdulillah...(^v^)v

and whenever i said i adore her, she would always laugh(out loud)..."that's da spirit, ju"..."never stop believing" she said...the time will come (eventually).

dia selalu ckp..."love is there when u least expected it..."
she said..."dia pon dah almost putus asa b4 she met her husband...and da fact dat few of her elder sisters are not married made her think dat, it's not worth thinking lar...penat...bior lar org nak cakap ape pon ckp lar...dah xpedulik dah ape org pikir...

but then da "right guy" came...though its a lil bit late, but she accepted her fate..."God has saved da best for last"...she said and she's happy.

the truth is...i'm x worried at all for da fact dat i'm x married...yes kengkadang mmg jeles gak tgk org lain ade org yg amik berat et al...but most of da time bende tuh suma x really bother me...
as da fact of getting married and stuck with the same guy for da rest of ur life tuh lar yg really scare me(to death)...nak kata aku jenis yg suka mgatal+bpoya2+flirty xjugak(mmg TAK pon sebenornya)...tp ntah arr...i x think i'm ready to commit(even at da age of 30, i still think i'm x ready to take care of others)

and i just x know bile aku akan bsedia nak mbawak a bouquet of white roses nih...(^o^) hohoho

changing life???

my life changed a lot when i came to labuan...

i used to hv an easy life back in pahang...
nak mkn, kedai byk...pilih jer mana nak + kuarkan duit + kenyang (^o^)
kalo mls or bosan mkn kt kdai...drive blik umah mak (yg jaraknye x smpi 30km tuh...) + buat muka kesian mintak nasik + kenyang (^o^)....and sometimes (most of the time actually..heheh) boleh siap tapau lg nasik lauk segala bwk blik gambang...haishhhhhh...

i never bother to learn how to cook...even for a simple meal...(mmg pemalas tahap gaban nyer..huhu)...and da fact is though i love eating, I HATE COOKING....(dats y nak kene carik "a cook" for a husband...senang idop)

BUT...those are da days...

labuan changes everything...alhamdulillah!
a gud (very gud) change i would say...
thanks to the bad food and to my fussy eating habit...
i'm changed.

though i am still the same old me...(^v*)
pemalas yg suka wat keje last2 minutes...
tetap jugak degil keras kepala... x listen to wut others say...
tp at least now i'm learning (trying) to learn how to cook...(walaupon mcm dah a lil bit late...but my dear friend Lenny used to say "its better late than never"...at least aku mcuba jgak akhirnya...

most of my old-time friends are all surprised+shocked+(sometimes) amazed dgn ape yg aku bleh buat skang...walaupon still dlm "amatur" period + most of my experiment failed miserably..
but i'm trying my best to improve my skills (kalo arr ianya layak di panggil skill pon)...

 

i learn how to bake (thanks to liza 4 da recipe)

 western dinner...

 

another western treat...

seafood treat...

and i will keep on trying...to improve myself...
and become a BETTER ME (^o^)

new year...new life???

31st December 2009...
its the last day before the new year comes (^O^) ...and i was having a blast of my time in the shopping spree marathon...for 4days in a row me and my friend went out searching for dinner gift(gift exchange among colleagues) but everytime we went out, i'll come back not with the gift for others but me....(and suma bayar cash yer since credit card suma sudah kene potong....(^O^) hohoho...)

one of the things that i bought(that i wanna share here in this blog)....

i have lavishly given mysely a new year treat by getting new footwear...one of them is this black velvety boots that costs me rm150.00 and i just got this on wednesday (and i lurrrrveeee it sooooooo much)...this is going to be my last shopping spree before we hit 2010...and i believed i've warapped my 2009 in a very good + satisfactory condition...lots of things - good and bad - happened  in 2009 that taught me the true meaning of life and made me who i am today...thank you God for all the obstacles you gave me..it made me stronger...and i learnt a lot from it...Alhamdulillah.

i hope this coming new year that awaits me will give me another great + surprising + fulfilling year ahead...with new challenges + obstacles for me to handle (^O^)

GOOD BYE 2009...it has been a great year...

and

WELCOME 2010...hope to get ANOTHER great year...