*sigh*

today is just not my day...(~,~)

my chest feels heavy... and I'm exhausted, mentally + emotionally tired.

its all because of the students (one student in particular) attitude.....
the one who keeps on blaming others for their own flaws.....
the one who knows his weaknesses but did nothing to change as if the weaknesses can eventually disappear on its own...
i just couldn't take it anymore so i asked him to come and see me personally...
he came but with a 'bodyguard'.....
i chased the 'bodyguard' away as i said i need to talk to him in private...so the 'bodyguard' went off...

AND
i started the conversation with a light topic....
firstly, i started talking + asking him about his family + studies + friends until i eventually came to the main topic of the day = his problems in english class....MY english class....
at first he responded, he admitted he's weak in the language...
so i asked, what would u do about it since u know you are weak???
he said, 'nothing!!..mcm tu saja lah...
i asked what do you mean by that???
he said, 'dah mmg lemah...mcm tu saja lah...dah lemah, nak buat apa lg???
i asked him to come and see me every afternoon after class for extra + private tuition, but he refused by saying that NOTHING can be done... he's weak...(AGAIN with that answer)
with that, he seriously has pushed the right button...
(*O*)
so, i started to talk about his family, about his responsibility of being the eldest son of a "petani" family...about him being the role model for his siblings....
he stopped looking at me...
and started to cry.....sobbing like h*** (but, come to think of it now (*O*) it looks like crocodile tears to me...)
so, i gave him some quiet time.
after a while, i started asking him again, but he refused to say anything...

i left him at my place while i was attending my other students who came for consultation....

he was at my place for more than one hour...but, that doesnt change anything....
his attitude before leaving my place was still disappointing...
he was STILL refusing my help....

he refused my suggestion on the extra class....he even refused my other suggestions to improve his english.... he practically refused anything...EVERYTHING!!!
what more can i say???what more can i do???

WHAT ELSE CAN A TEACHER DO???

some people did say: 

You can be a doctor and save lives...

You can a a lawyer and defend lives...

You can be a soldier and protect lives...

or

You can just simply be yourself...

A teacher who touches lives. 

p/s: i just dont see any point in "touching people's lives" if they still refuse to do anything with their OWN lives. 

*sigh*