new beginning...is it???

its a new day in a new year...
a day to start anew...
a day to start fresh...
a day to forget the past...
and continue living the future...

but i wonder how am i going to start a new beginning if my past keeps on haunting me...
or i didnt allow my past to pass over me...(*O*)
did i???
i x know...
x know what i want in my life...
i x know what i need...
i just DONT FREAKING KNOW...

OH GOD,
please help me...
guide me....
give me sign...
anything...
just help me in choosing what's best in my life...
i really need it...
seriously...