Wednesday, June 30, 2010

old life???

"Some people can get Old without getting Old"...thats the fact of life... and that's the thing that i'm afraid most...

i refuse(i know its bad to say this) to grow old...
i refuse to have flaby tummy...
i refuse to have double chin...
i refuse to have brittle bones...
i refuse to have absent mind....
BUT i know i can never change the fact that as a normal human being, aging process is a normal thing...therefore, i will cherish my youth till i can no longer lift my fingers....

ONE MORE THING...

i'm getting fussier + more stubborn  as the years go by....
i wonder why???is it because of the age factor???

cheeewah....tuh trick question jer tuh...(^O^) hohoho

i'm actually afraid...nope, not afraid...i am TERRIFIED of being old...

i dont wanna grow old being a grumpy kinda lady...
in fact, i hate old grumpy lady....so why am i behaving in such way (*O*) walaupon x bape obvious, tp i'm nurturing myself into that kinda attitude
i just hate myself for it...(*O*)
one article i have recently read said: 
"...we can see that anger management is necessary is our stressful lives. If we do not learn to manage our anger, we will harm ourselves physically. It has been reported that people who are constantly angry are twice as likely to have a heart attack than those who have learnt to manage their anger. So, the next time you get angry and upset, try out one of the ways that have been suggested..."
so, i'm going to train myself to be a BETTER person...much much better than i AM now...

Insyaallah....wish me luck (^O^)

Tuesday, June 29, 2010

life is funny...

i love tuesdays....only in the year 2010....
people are saying funny things to me today...

the first occurance:
i was busy typing handouts on sample essays to be given to my new batch of students as they gave me a total "crap" when i asked them to write an essay yesterday when a friend came to me....hush...hush and told me that she dreamt of me last night... i was practically screaming before i asked for details...

friend: i have something urgent to tell u wor...kalo x hati tak tenang nnt...
me:what???ape yg penting sgt sampai ati x tenang nih???
friend: i dreamt of u last night....

i screamed....

me:OMG!!! me????why me???
friend:no...its not u alone...there are other people also....
me:so, citer sampai abes mimpi tuh......
friend: i dreamt u and *[name has to be put a secret] are a "夫妇"....


so, i said....

me: nasib baik.....thank god u have dreamt of that...meaning that its not going to be true lar because mimpi kn selalunya makna dia terbalik..... (hopefully)


the second occurance: 
i was bored, so i started calling everybody in my list....
one of them is liza, my bestie
me: are u busy??? (she's teaching an afternoon session)...
liza: going to be busy in a few minutes (she has class)...why???
me: saja jer....nothing to do....nak mengumpat
liza: bagus2...cepat, kita nak mengumpat sapa nih???
me: tp, i have no one in particular lar....
liza: kalo camtu, nak tanye nih...ko ade pelaris tak???(as she just opens a new restaurant in tawau)
me: weih makcik, kalo aku ada pelaris dah lama arr aku nih kene sambar ngan org...tuh soklan menghina ke hape tuh???
liza: ...ok2....(before she laughed out loud....)...ju, nnt sok2 kalo ko dah laris tepon aku balik yer....nak kene p klas dah nih...babai..
me: antoo btol arr...haish!!!


so, the gist of the story today....
AWAT SUMA ORANG NAK AKU LARIS CEPAT2 NIH??? what's wrong with being single???

Monday, June 21, 2010

haish....fenin!!!!!!

students are getting from bad to worst each year...
i thought i was having a miserable life last year in...
handling students' attitude...
dealing with students' tantrum...
"healing" their language problems...
manipulating their strengths...
"treating" their weaknesses....
i thought LAST year was hell...
this year is even worse....
ape yg lagik teruk dr hell eh???

GOD...please give me the strength to go through this year...
i really need it (*O*)

Sunday, June 6, 2010

one & alone...

i've never known that silence can drive me nuts....
i thought i like being alone....
getting the whole house to myself should be something that i should be waiting for...
i can do lots of the things that cannot be done when my housemate is around...
but apparently, i thought wrong (*O*)

i hate the silence of the house...
i hate talking to myself...
i hate seeing no one else in the house...
i hate having no one to accompany me in the house...
i hate the echoes...
i hate being ALONE...
and i dont want to end-up like this lil' birdie...
alone and lonely (*O*)

i don't really need someone to talk to...
i just need someone to be IN THE HOUSE....with me....
we don't have to talk to each other...
we can mind our own business...
we can do our own things....
i just need another soul in the same house WITH me....

p/s: hurmm...how pathetic that sounds eh?????

Saturday, June 5, 2010

buhsan (*O*)

buhsan nak mati dok umah sorg2 nih...
xtau nak watpe kt umah kalo sorg2.....
nak berborak, xde member...
nak tgk tv pon buhsan, xde kwn nak lawan meng'komen'....

but then,
early mornin' my cousin main2 ngan FB - letak lagu2 syahdu zaman2 lama dulu2....
so, i pon ikot sekali arr main2 dengor lagu2 lama...
byk gak arrr dengor lagu2 jiwang pagi td....
tetibe terjumpe lagu nih....

suwey btol lyric lagu nih...chiestttttt!!!!
"BILA DAH JEMU KITA DITINGGALKAN"
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3KrN2duSyRM&feature=related

nih lg satu...(*O*) haish!!!
"KURELAKAN DIKAU PERGI"
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gX8BKn9_Xr8&feature=related

ade lg nih...
"RINDU PADA YANG TAK SUDI"
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=d2unXLCzdc0&feature=related
lagu nih cam sangat sesuwei (*O*)

tapi, xpenah plak tdengor lagu nih mase zaman dulu2...

afsal eh?????

(*O*) huhu...

P/S: Lagu2 melayu mostly MEMANG sangat2 kasihan kn???? sumanya lagu2 yg menyedihkan....haish!!!