me and my tongue...

i didnt notice that i've totally changed in manners and attitude as i aged...
my tongue is getting faster at judging + commenting + critisizing + gossipping others...
i dont really bother about what people think...and i obviously dont bother of what they feel...
until one of my colleague pointed out to me straight to my face...
OMG!!!
i've become a very2 mean person nowadays....heartless with a cold-blooded tongue - who says things without thinking.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lmTf_tsNMnY

i dont want to regret later as i'm afraid that the all the hurt that i've caused will be permanent...and i know a permanent damage cannot be mended...

words can kill...
words can put us down...
words can destroy everything...
words can determine who you are.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XvTe7ZHa7cs

Ya Allah...help me to change (*O*) i dont want to be remembered as "perempuan ber mulut celupar". 
From now on, i will try (my best) to watch  what i said not to hurt others feeling...please god help me in this.

my latest KK trip...(so far)

Initial plan to KK

1. movie marathon
2. shopping kasut sepasang dua + baju sehelai dua + handbag (kalo ada yg berkenan di mata)
3. guardian/ watson
4. salon
5. sushi
6. comics

Day 1
We arrived in KKIA at around 2.00++pm...hailed a taxi that brought us straight to Grand Borneo Hotel in 1-Borneo. The hotel was jam packed with foreign tourists spending their summer holidays...because of that we didnt manage to get the standard room as it was fully booked by them (*o*) so, that left us with the superior room... a bit more expensive but its much2 (seriously) better than Courtyard hotel that i used to stay for MUET all this while.
On the first day, we didnt do much as both of us are tired, we just went to giant + guardian + carik mkn and went back to the room to sleep b4 headed out for our movies marathon = Twilight - New moon (the reason why i wanna go to KK) + The sorcerer's apprentice.
so, basically that wrapped up our first day there.

p/s: x sempat p shopping...xpe2, sok masih ada (^O*)

Day 2
Went to a salon and spent a whole day there (literally ONE whole day)... we were the first and (might be as we were there from 11++am till 6pm...giler lama kn???) the last customer for a very sweet lady...(forgot to ask for her name)... my back was stiff of sitting too long and waiting for the process to end was a TORTURE...
once done, i was literally famished i could eat a horse...nope (*O*) i could eat an elephant but later resort to sushi king....its much2 nicer + tastes much2 tastier (^v^)
before we ended the night, we went for another movie treat - Inception = a brilliant work of christopher nolan.

p/s: another day went by and still x sempat p shopping (*O*)

Day 3
Lepas breakfast dah nak kene siap2 p airport...arrrggghhhh (@_@) still xdpt shopping...uhuks, sgt2 kuciwa...penat jer terbang jauh2 merentasi lautan...and the fact that i had a very2 tiring KK trip...without even getting a chance to shop, that was seriously depressing.
last2 nya kitorg shopping famous amos + perfume jer kt airport...haish...sedey btol

The Outcome

1. Movie marathon - dpt tgk 3 movies jer...ok lar kn dr xder langsung
2. shopping - langsung x sempat...haish!!!
3. sempat p guardian + watson kejap jer (*O*) buat syarat jer dpt masuk.
4. salon - sepanjang ari....
5. sushi - OK lar tp bcos of terlampau penat, xdpt nak mkn byk...
6. comic - jumpa 1 jer (*O*) 

so, puas ati with the trip?
NOPE...not really but i have to bersyukur dengan apa yang ada...like what my friend said: "at least ko ada gak cuti...kami ni..." (^O^) so, alhamdulillah.

teacher, lecturer or educator???

teacher, lecturer or educator???

what's the difference?

what does it matter...

for those ignorance.

teacher, lecturer or educator???

what does it mean?

teach, lecture and educate scholar...

to get their life ascertain.

teacher, lecturer or educator???

what does it resemble?

we do all the role-player...

just to satisfy all those 'grimmish' disabled???

teacher, lecturer or educator???

when will this end?

just hope..just pray for your heart desire...

never unless we get a concussion.

teacher, lecturer or educator...

just enjoy the torture... 

we'll get our 'toast'...

once they stop to boast.

*sigh*

today is just not my day...(~,~)

my chest feels heavy... and I'm exhausted, mentally + emotionally tired.

its all because of the students (one student in particular) attitude.....
the one who keeps on blaming others for their own flaws.....
the one who knows his weaknesses but did nothing to change as if the weaknesses can eventually disappear on its own...
i just couldn't take it anymore so i asked him to come and see me personally...
he came but with a 'bodyguard'.....
i chased the 'bodyguard' away as i said i need to talk to him in private...so the 'bodyguard' went off...

AND
i started the conversation with a light topic....
firstly, i started talking + asking him about his family + studies + friends until i eventually came to the main topic of the day = his problems in english class....MY english class....
at first he responded, he admitted he's weak in the language...
so i asked, what would u do about it since u know you are weak???
he said, 'nothing!!..mcm tu saja lah...
i asked what do you mean by that???
he said, 'dah mmg lemah...mcm tu saja lah...dah lemah, nak buat apa lg???
i asked him to come and see me every afternoon after class for extra + private tuition, but he refused by saying that NOTHING can be done... he's weak...(AGAIN with that answer)
with that, he seriously has pushed the right button...
(*O*)
so, i started to talk about his family, about his responsibility of being the eldest son of a "petani" family...about him being the role model for his siblings....
he stopped looking at me...
and started to cry.....sobbing like h*** (but, come to think of it now (*O*) it looks like crocodile tears to me...)
so, i gave him some quiet time.
after a while, i started asking him again, but he refused to say anything...

i left him at my place while i was attending my other students who came for consultation....

he was at my place for more than one hour...but, that doesnt change anything....
his attitude before leaving my place was still disappointing...
he was STILL refusing my help....

he refused my suggestion on the extra class....he even refused my other suggestions to improve his english.... he practically refused anything...EVERYTHING!!!
what more can i say???what more can i do???

WHAT ELSE CAN A TEACHER DO???

some people did say: 

You can be a doctor and save lives...

You can a a lawyer and defend lives...

You can be a soldier and protect lives...

or

You can just simply be yourself...

A teacher who touches lives. 

p/s: i just dont see any point in "touching people's lives" if they still refuse to do anything with their OWN lives. 

*sigh*

 

mystery...

Life's a mystery...some can see in the dark, 

some get lost in the bright light, 

some are proud to announce what they dont have, 

some deny what they have, 

some hide the obvious, 

and others display the non-existent...

thats how colourful life is...

so, what is your mystery of life???

 

i can....can you???

i got this nice email long-long time ago....
actually i've already forgotten that i have this email in my inbox until i'm desperate in looking for some extra materials for a course...today's course where i'm supposed to inform the English Unit about the latest changes in MUET writing.
so, while cracking my head thinking about what to present, i went to browse through my old+ancient emails when i suddenly came across this nice article....so, i decided to share this with my colleague... (^o^)

fi yuo cna raed tihs, yuo hvae a sgtrane mnid too.

cna yuo raed tihs?

olny 55 plepoe cna...

i cdnuolt blveiee taht i cluod aulaclty uesdnatnrd waht i was rdanieg. The phaonmneal pweor of the hmuan mnid, aoccdrnig to a rscheearch at Cmabridge Uinervtisy, it dseoo't mtaetr in waht oerdr the ltteres in a wrod are, the olny iproamtnt tihng is taht the frsit and lsat ltteer be in the rghit pclae.

The rset can be a taotl mses and you can sitll raed it whotuit a pboerlm. Tihs is bcuseae the huamn mnid deos not raed ervey lteter by istlef, but the wrod as a wlohe. 

Azanmig huh?

Yaeh and i awlyas tghuhot slpeling was ipmorantt!


p/s: actually, there is more...but  i skip the malay version part...

life goes on...no matter what (^o^)

another two of english unit members are leaving KML for a better life + better future + better place + better experience...
hope they'll never forget those they leave behind...(me included)...

i just got to know these nice people, and already its time to say goodbye...
life is too short to be ignored...
things happen so fast nowadays that sometimes we dont even get the chance to blink our eyes to see the changes...

and it is just scary to even think about it...